Before I went back to school and earned my Bachelor’s and Master’s degrees, I would attend professional conferences on attachment and early childhood trauma to try to help and better understand Victoria. I would register for conferences with no professional qualifications. I had no letters behind my name, and no “job”. It’s true, I didn’t have a career, and motherhood is a job, but still I would try to avoid people so they wouldn’t ask me, “So, what do you do?”
There was some relief after graduating that my name tag finally had letters and I felt more confident engaging others in conversation. However, the truth is, I am not much different with my new letters. Frankly, letters that most of the world has no idea what they stand for.
I now find my interest in psychodynamic psychology. Yes, the stuff of Freud and psychoanalysis. I am now attending conferences with people that have Ph.D and MD after their names. They are steeped in research. I see Yale, and I get small. Next week I’ll be sitting in group discussions with leaders in this field. How did I get here?
I got here by showing up.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” ~Williamson
I have something to gain by going to this conference, but I also have something to give. And so do you. Show up. Be seen. Shine.